It was a small thing really. It didn't bother me that much. At least at first. But the more I thought about it, it summed up what I already knew. I had a moment of clarity. I have to break my addiction. I say addiction because that's all it is. I had to have it. It made me feel good in the past and it still makes me feel good now. But like any addiction it isn't good for my future. Kanye said "why everything supposed to be bad makes me feel so good/everything they told me not to was exactly what I would/ And I tried to stop man, I tried the best I could/ but you (make me smile with my heart.)" It was my vice and I have to get away from it for my health. I think I've finally gained the strength to let it go.